do i sound saddist in my blog..? out in the world i felt like i'm putting on a mask every day...a mask for this day to this day another for this hour to that hour..who can i truly share it out to? but if i share it whats gonna happen?? i felt that i'm drifting away from my very first encounter.... where are you???

how to trust other when you can even trust yourself

mm... a month pass since i last blog... things well have not been going very well lar... i sometime have the feeling that i'm mearly existing.. appearing for the sake of appearing.. i question myself who is my friend that i can really trust... who i can rely on.. though my mind can tell me that who those people are but i can't even trust myself... anyway forget those unhappy things... last thurs is my unit anniversary.. had half a day at sentosa playing.. n the rest of the day off.. so my camp mates all stayed n enjoy the sun sand n sea!! go to my pics in my link to find out more! chiao~

y care

y care about what people put on their msn nick/ quit msg in irc/ topic its juz a comment y care about what other are thinking its only a thinking ya your care about others coz your concern, but y not find out the real reason before showing the concern it irritates ppl off ask beforing making your reply n decisions!! ppl are getting realy sensitive on what other a putting/sayin/typing so if i say/comment on i'm gonna say i'm going to US tomorrow you gonna take it that i'm going???? so if i say/comment on i'm going swimming after i post this publish you gonna see me wimming? so if i say/comment on stop reading my stuffs i'll bet you gonna continue reading !!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

driving

Began to learn driving this few days.. so driving a car isn't as easy as it seems to be.. having to multi task when you drive. so who say man can't multi task haha.. you gotta keep watching the road your mirrors n other stuffs.. got a few engin stall durning the first lesson but not bad.. today went for my second almost late hah... lesson starts at 11 work up at 1045 wahhhh... slowly i think i'm getting the hang of it lar.. so guy look forward for me driving you all to service ar!!!! ahaha.. anyway when i last said i'm into a plaing year of 2006 getting liscence is one of the stuffs yeah i actually written down a list like 10 stuffs n guess what top 3 have been full filled!! praise the lord ar!! so mm.... liscence is on the 7th soon it will coem to pass!!!

Do you know

Do you know: Jesus lives.. He died for your sins.. He lives again.. today after svc i'm been thinking with just these 3 simple question and answer.. it can lead many people to salvation but it's all up to me if i'm bold enough to say it out.

Blessing

today was toally shack out for me. for the first time my 12hrs night duty i did not sleep. haha not bad huh... was reading the bible durning duty and read on abraham. i've cannot say found out lar but out God is not a small God but a great God of all things. he doesnt hestitate to bless people not thining twice nor under any conditions. It's liek free flow.. great huh =) den had bible study in the afternoon almost KOed. Gal. 5:16-17 "I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do things that you wish" this verse impacted me the most throughout the bs.

My 2006 plans

This year 2006 is gonna be a totally different me.. from this very second onwards. I will adpot a life style of planning..if i fail to plan i plan to fail...Seeking the face of God knowing him once again.. to be in his arms all these will be my top prority.. geting back to my prayer life.. its hard to get my engine rolling after enlisted...

let me see how many weeks have pas since my last entry.. not i can't be bother to blog is that my com was down for liek 2-3 weeks those week was terriable i gotta survive on my ps2 lol.. anyway.. finaly i;ve turn operational.. meansing i get to book out every friday hopefully haha.. currently doing my deploynment at airport~ cool huh... though it's kinda far coz it's liek from one end of my house to the other end of the island... neverthan less its worth it coz i get to come home everyday hahaha.. 12hrs of work 24hrs of rest seems nice huh.. haha to be continue...??

32km Route March

15th of dec marks a new stage of my life.. I've actually started my 32km Route March n end in one piece on the 16th!! haha i've totally mentally n physically draining!!!! imagin you gotta walk 4-5km for 45mins tt's like 1km/9mins don't think thats all, coz you still gotta carry another 20kg on your back!!!but the good thing is that my platoon set off togather n came back togather!! great job man 14!!

Yawnz gonna book in soon le... as days in ns life r spent i'm starting to get the sick feeling.. everytime when i get to book out i juz don't feel like going back in.... Also another great news is that i'm an uncle already!!! lol my little nephew Marcus Ryan Loh Ming was born on 15th of nov 2005 awww how nice!! suppose to go see him de.. tt how i got my off pass btw. but due to some medical stuffs i can't go visit him.. wonder how does he look like haha... soon chc gonna move to expo le.. dunnnoe whats gonna happen.. i sometime felt so far away frm him. times i feel like running away but how.. really a struggle in camp.. i wanna feel his presence once more..

2 more weeks and I'm done with my Advance Infantry Training(AIT) zzzz.... really sad that i don't get posted out to more relaxing vocation. Gotta stay as man in Infantry unit...not really what i wanted...sobx..

Private lo~~~

8 weeks have passs and it seems just like a blink of an eye. I've finally completed my BMT this tuesday n now siting here typing this out as a Private ahhaa!!! Still can remember the first day when I enlisted, steping into the maju camp thinking how tough n diffcult it's gonna pass this 8wk. All thanks God that he lend me his ears to listen to my complains, his strength to help me through all the training n "tekkan" sessions.

Shiok Shiok ar booking out

It's been a month that I've been enlisted..to me now.. ns life isn't as bad as it seems to be.. thank God that he bless me with a good unit, platoon and sergents.. haha.and then 3 more weeks POP lo...lol so fast.. so shiok.. I love booking out ar .. shio shio ar booking out

Dear all who reads my blog, SEE YA ALL IN 2-3WEEKS TIME NS AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your's Sincerly stuffyfood aka fujiberry aka lb

well... lets see...it's been 4 days have pass since my birthday and i'm officially 19!!! wooooo~~~~ lol.. den 4 more days left tilli go for my NS~~~ T_T boooooooo~~~~ i dunnoe whats this feeling in me.. but i'm kinda going thru this before NS syndrome..haha i itnk ben n sherin will know?? ... mmm.... so ya i've no been trainign myself gotta a united nation on me~ ahhhh cmi ar!!!! i dunnoe shld i express my feeling to her anot? lol die lar die~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~btw i got my hair cut short~ but too bad i can't post it up~ sold my phone for ngage den my pc is down~ too bad~ lol

WooOoOo~~~ Fun day today. My second usher outing..haha..i guess t's more fun today cause it's like I now know most of the ppl in my section. Had a great day at sentosa. Play vollyball, sabo ppl long quee at toilet(oops!). Got some bruises due to the vollyball pain hor~ after tt went to eat at harbour front food court. we have like more den 20 ppl eating in a food court. den after tt go coffee club drink coffee. lol the whole place like belongs to us sia only got 3 other couples/group. Really had a great day today but kinda overspent liao haha.

wEee..today sure is happening.. woke up at 12 today yawn yawn~ on the com stare at it play some game den went to meeet sis. sherin n miko for lunch as sherin requested it. I thought it's gonna be a bad lunch coz when your leader msg your early in the morning 4am telling you that she wanna meet you for food..man i tel you it not gonna be something good haha~ but thank God we didn't receive any scolding from her( i hope she doesn't read this) hehe after tt I got myself a nice shirt..i kinda like it on first sight. Den I sms my bro in england to half-half the price for that shirt and he agreed~ cool~ after tt dinner meet up with wendy n jacky + sherin. We ate swensen. I had slamon+mushroom baked rich while wendy had fish n jacky had chicken baked rice. I kinda regreat ordering salmon coz it's like i have only 2-3 thin pieces of Salmon which jacky's had so many chunks of chickens argh!!Also i manage to tie a note with the cherry stick using my tounge(hehe u shld know what i'm hinting lar lol) After dinner went to play arcade. Learnt how to play outrun 2 thx to jacky =) reach home ard 9:15pm liao...phew~

Wah~ super tired man after comming home from chalet. It's super fun. Set off to chalet on tuesday den check-out today. we had bbq for 2 nights but it looks like only the 2 night look more like one lol. It's really fun to get togather with the classate to survive thru the 2 night. we played ps for like alsmot 48 hours lol. Scolding each other for doing stupid stuffs. sabo those early birds who goes to sleep occupying the bed with tooth pastes on their face LoL. Den 2nd day my friend and i went to cycle, I had my shades on waiting to spot some beach babes but too bad we had our chalet durning weekdays so.. not a single one LoL. Den we had friends who went fishing. At night when we uave left over aluminium foils we made Lol SWORDS SHILEDS HELMET CARBINE.. tatally cannot make it.Juz too bad tt our sch staffs cannot make it down as they gotta tally our results.. But ya it's totally fun !!! wooooo *for more pic n info pls proceed to my pic album from the link*

Title?

i've been like think do we really need to put title for every post meh..it's kinda like ma fan lor lol..every time before blog gotta stare at the title box and tink of one that is so nice so cool so wadever haha.. today i totally spend my day outside sia lol..from early morning 8 till night 9+ more pro den a working adult of office hours haha..got my hair coloured today all thx to alex( his a cool hair dresser man!) the colour totall fierce imagin ash grey base and Green tips muahahahha. It's me LB born again ar haha..now whoever is reading this and don't catch anything juz flow with me n figure it out haha..check out my hair at my photo links =D

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Weeeeee finally after 2 year at ITE i've finally grauated.. which means 2 things good n bad.. Good news is that i no need to study le~ hahaha. Bad news is NS argh!!! 8th July gotta report le maju camp infantry.. i heard that infrantry very very very very de xiong!!! die le die le.. gotta go build up myself durning june